The Bridge

This homepage could be a raw continuation of where I intend to leave my old one. I think no-one would fault me for simply redesigning my old site in new colors, replacing the old name with the new and carrying on as if nothing had happened.

This homepage could be a proud declaration of new identity, a clean break from everything that used to be my life. I could refuse to include links to my old life, pretend that it had never happened and treat myself as Athena, born full-grown from the forehead of her father, Zeus. Few people would fault me for doing that, either.

I'm not going to do either.

Cloning the old pages into the new with a few cosmetic lifts wouldn't even begin to address the amount of change through which I'm going, change that I'd like to address here on my little corner of the internet. I refuse to act as if nothing is different, because that simply isn't true. I've changed quite a lot in recent months, and more is still to come. If I were to simply continue to add to the old website, it would feel like a denial of all that's transpired in my life. Even changing the old site to fit the new name doesn't feel like enough to distinguish who I was from who I am now and who I wish to be.

Breaking from the past, however, would deny the long and winding trail of events that led me to where I am now. With the noted rare exception of the total amnesiac, adults are not tabula rasa. We all have pasts, histories that contribute to who we are now and who we seek to become tomorrow. To deny the existence of that past, undoubtedly I would have to invent one. While I refuse to go back to being the person I was, I equally refuse to try to pretend to be someone or something that I'm not. I am myself, for better or for worse.

This homepage is a bridge from the past to the future, incorporating, I hope, the best of both. I wish to learn from my history, but I do not wish to live in it any more.